ugh I am so not a writer! But for some reason I have this desire to write my story so I'm going to press through and just ramble a little each day and see what comes out. I'm not really sure why I'm writing this is a format as though other people will actually read it, but if you did happen to stumble across this, then welcome to a glimpse of my head. It gets a little messy at times, so be prepared. :)
So I guess I'll start at the present then head back in time so you can see a little bit of how I got to where I am. Since it took me so long just to think of a title for this thing, I will stick with the basics tonight.
I am 37 yrs old (which on a side note, I am probably the only 37yr old who wishes they were 40. I want to be able to say I'm a wise old woman! Of course I need to have the wisdom as well, so maybe it's a good thing I still have 3 more years to find some.) I will admit that I am one of those people who wants to make a difference and "change the world!" But often I can't tell if that's for their sake or my own. I want to say that I have lived this extraordinary life so far, but honestly as I look back over it, all I can say is it's been wonderfully average. Sure there are some stories that still make me think "what you were thinking Michelle" and other stories that God has used to teach me so much about Him and myself, but really who am I? Anything above average in my life is all because of God's amazing grace and mercy in my life.
So anyhoo where was I? oh yea continuing with the basics....I have been married now to a wonderfully average husband for 12 years now and I have 3 wonderfully average children who I adore. I have heard that it's not safe to mention your children's names in these things so I will refer to them by their best features. My daughter, PassionPrincess is 7 years old and just finishing the first grade. My middle son, CuriousGeorge is 5 and on round 1 of kindergarten. And my youngest, SillyGoose is 4 and is home with me.
I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis a year and a half ago so needless to say our lives have taken quite the turn this past year (more on that later). But I can honestly say that I am thankful for my disease now, because spiritually and emotionally I am stronger than ever (it's taken me awhile to say that by the way.)
As I have written just this bit, I have changed the wording so many times, because I want it to be the "perfect" wording. Ugh!! No wonder I don't ever write! The perfectionist in me is a stumbling block. I think from now on I am going to blog the words that come to mind and never hit backspace (unless I spell a word horribly wrong, I do have my limits) . Yikes that kind of made my stomach turn a little. :)
Oh I hope I stick with this. Tomorrow nights goal......the teenage years! I may need to call my therapist after getting through that one.
Night night!
